Tonight is the solar eclipse, and the winter solstice.
do you know what that means?
2011 will be filled with magical happenings...
here are the 11 things I want for 2011, with a blog entry to follow...
(no real order)
1) honolulu marathon, or something like it.
2) apply for mfa programs for 2012
3) have my art displayed.......somewhere.
4) go on 5 hikes
5) buy a bicycle--and ride it. ^_^
6) Finish 11 books
7) learn how to love someone.. (doesn't this scream "blog topic"...ya, see below)
8) write a story
9) finish another body of art work, perhaps in an evolving style
10)see at least 2 plays / Broadway performances/ or something within that realm of experiences...
11)and, with that said: spend money on experiences verses material things (unless of course, it's for Chanel things..)
you know what, I don't really want to write about that, anymore...
I think it goes without saying that...my choices of men have been very *unique*
but, so what?
I think 2011 should be the year of "so what"
because, I swear, if I write another blog/diary entry that fucking goes down in the dumps because of some weirdo's strange way of showing affection (or non-affection ) for me, I'm going to throw up.
Even though, for the most part, this year sucked monkey balls in terms of my <3 life..
I've learned SO much about how to deal with things, how to move on, and most importantly, that my life/ my heart/my body are of my concern.
This year may actually go down as one of the better years for me.
Last week , I fully grasped the last point (the my's) and I haven't felt better.
I'm tired of trying to make everyone happy and I'm tired of talking shit about people I really like/love to appease someone else.
I've decided to keep my love life to myself, and in a strange way, that may sum up #7 better than any other "justification" blog I tried to write earlier.
I've always tried to have a "group consensus" love for every guy I've liked...
but, no one likes anyone I choose, except me... lol.
I've turned myself away from guys I really liked because of the whole "he's not good for you..." thing,
but, I think the biggest reason I keep making the same mistakes in my love life is because, I never learn for myself... I listen to the advice of others, and feel the burn of a different type of hurt/anger.
people are experiences, and up until now, the only person i "experienced" all the way through was Jon, and that's why I was able to get over him--SO quickly.
So, with this new understanding of self vs others, I will be able to accomplish #7 in 2011.
anyway, it's christmas time...
time for beautiful music and happy wrappings,