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9.27.2010

maybe I was wrong?

deep down inside i'm the vainest person you will ever meet. promise-omise.
I literally think that everything I do is correct/right/perfect... close to perfect.


and i take pride in the fact that i know this about myself. i am unashamed of it, but don't put it out on the table for everyone to see......or do I?

anyway,
since the "cat is out of the bag"  so to speak...
I've started to reconsider these thoughts about myself--especially now, at 28...
maybe I'm doing everything wrong, maybe i've made a lot of  mistakes, and have done things far from perfect...

I'm very famous for throwing wise sayings and quotes at individuals, and one of my favorites is: to have a good friend, you must be a good friend...

but, i wonder, do i practice what I preach?

In my love rants (and this is one of them, but i'll keep it short...)
I've always wanted a 'best friend' of sorts, nothing really sexual but something very spiritual. a conversation of the minds verses the bodies...
and maybe that's what I have with all of my friends...

but, in terms of lovers...
maybe I do not have a lover because i do not love.

it's something to consider.
...and i suppose to give is to receive, but if there is no giving, there is no receiving.

hmm...



conversations=reservations?
**winnie.

2 comments:

  1. winnie, i think you are a good friend. i think you are loving and open, too. i think you have every reason to be a little vain!! :D

    of course, though, we all have that disconnect between what we mean to be/want to be, and what actually happens in real life.

    ~manda.

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  2. winnie, i think you are a good friend. i think you are loving and open, too. i think you have every reason to be a little vain!! :D

    of course, though, we all have that disconnect between what we mean to be/want to be, and what actually happens in real life.

    ~manda.

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